Come and Join Me in My Snow Fort — We’ll Make It Melt

Well, I know I haven’t been posting much. I don’t want to turn my blog too much into a dominating rant of my life. I want a nice variety. Although I would like a new entry, and something to do, and kinda get this weight lifted off of me. I’m strange, I write and it makes me feel extremely better. And I can write about drugs and dark things, and then no urge to experience it. Like taking care of it through my alter ego/writing. Strange hmmm?

Anyways, its Tuesday! And school is closed. Oh surprise, surprise! Our superintendent that we used to have would never call a cancellation, let alone a 2 hour delay. They’d rather we die. And when they do call them, we didn’t need them. Although we got a new one this year and he calls a cancellation every which direction. There are three surrounding schools around my town. The main town people, the outskits people, and the country people. Well, they are on a 2 hour delay today, and it may continue, we…are closed.

I just heard on the radio that we have 5 inches, and we had 4 at 5:30 this morning, that was only 2 hours ago. Hmmm, I can kinda of understand why, its dangerous. Now, by no means at all do I dislike this cancellation. I could use the extra day to work on all the school work that has left me stressed to no belief (which I will get back to in a few). Although we’ve missed so much school, I don’t think we’ll be getting out of school until like mid-June! Our previous release date was May 23. Thats more like June 5, if you ask me…How horrible. I live in Indiana, the weather is unpredictable, massive, and what not. The school system should just give us 5 built in snow days, that we won’t have to make up. But the school thinks we have to have “180″ days. Which is absolutely ridiculous. Especially with how things have been screwed up for our school. We missed several days from the second quarter, and we’re missing tons in this quarter (3rd) although the quarter is ending at nearly the same time, maybe adding on a week. But now all our make up days will be added onto the 4th quarter. So now it will be like 11-12 weeks instead of the normal 9. Its just ridiculous dealing with all this crap.

Well, I really seem to be going off on a rant today. But like I said, I don’t entirely mind. My stress has been through the roof, so much its been making me sick all the time. I have no motivation to do school, if I put my mind to it, I would be brilliant, like anyone. But I just…don’t. So basically in Biology/Anatomy and Physiology we’ve had a quiz everyday…Some of my scores?

10/29.
16/2.
5/15

Yes–my motivation–none. If I would take even just a half an hour to look at these, I would know these quizzes and pass them with ease. Although, I look at them for the first time when the teacher gives us 5 minutes to look over. I just really could care less about this information, that I just don’t put any effort into it. And I’ve been stressed out with AP English (advance placement) because its the “research” aspect and the “school” side I guess you could say of English. I love English because I love writing, and we aren’t writing, and when we are its mindless classify and divide essays or what not. I want to write creative writing pieces. Its just not what I like from my English.

And along with these classes is economics, motivation once again, none existant. I don’t mind it TOO much, esepcially since I really want to go into business and this stuff will help me. I pay attention, I just do horrible on the test, because they’re based off the book (which I don’t read–of course). Also I’m in advanced theater arts, and we have to read 2 plays and write a paper over it, which I don’t mind. I just don’t have time.

Oh, and then stupid me, decided it would be awesome if I audition for the school play. I got casted for not only 1…but 2 of the spring plays. This is my first time ever being in the play. And its not that its hard, but its from 2:45 to 4:45. So I don’t get home until nearly 5:30…And I need at least a little “me” time at night…and it just takes out from my me time.

So basically my bad habits are screwing me over. So basically, I’m screwing myself over.

Well, I’ve typed a lot…I mean a lot. So I’m gonna end this, probably bored out of your mind anyways. Like anyone reads this, basically just to get things off my shoulder.

Soon, I’m gonna make a couple book reviews from all the books I’ve read, that I own in my collection. Because I love books ^.^ Alright. Enjoy.

Across the Universe

A movie tribute to the infamous, Beatles. Its composed of many of their songs into a story plotline. This movie is magnificant in every possible way. If your a fan of art in your movies, check this one out. And yes, it is a musical. So if you are fans of the also magnificant Sweeney Todd, you’ll adore this. And it has the same indie film taste as Brick and Juno.

Across the Universe is based around the Vietnam war and people at home, with the revolutions and what not. And of course a little love story slipped in. The era of drugs. The scenes are fantastic with each time they get high. In that time, thats what it was all about sex, drugs, and alcohol, and fuuuunnn times. The movie exudes it on all levels.

This is definitely a must have. Its on my top favorite movies. Fan freaking tastic. Go watch it or else you just plain fail in life.

Note: This is supposed to be a review, but I didn’t feel like going into crazy details, and I didn’t want to give too much away, I always do. Next review will be a lot better. Enjoy!

Fancy Elegance

[Well, I'm off to a Tea Party! I have so much, I would love to vent and share with the world but I really should be going. So here is a little sweet treat for you. Not to mention I didn't do a special Valentine's Day entry. Oh snap!]

Death by Stress; Lemme Runaway

All I can say is…I am sooo flippin stressed. I have so much homework, that I’ve been neglecting. I think I may skip school 2maro to attend to it. Although, I missed two days last week because I got hit with this nasty bug that half my school got. And then I had a field trip today…And to top it all off…I’m sick to my stomach, I’ve ran to the bathroom three times now…

 I have so much crap…oh yeah…lets see:

2 papers due 2maro, I’ve neglected to work on. Memorize the two plays I’m in! Study for this bones test in bio 2. Study for the test I missed last friday, that i’m still not ready for. Study for an econ test I’m not super positive about. Study for the quiz i missed in English. Oh yeah read and finish a book I’ve been neglecting for weeks because I’m too busy trying to do the rest of this other kind of crap. And have it finished by Friday and start my plan sheet for the paper I have to write over it…

Why the hell did I do this to myself? I think I’m smart enough to do this…hell no. And I have no motivation whatsoever to do any of this work. I can do about an hour, hour and a half, two tops…and like one assignment then…I’m done…I have no motivation left…my mind is not up for this…and…oh my gosh…I don’t feel good on top of this.

The only reason I’m on is because I needed like a 10 minute break. And I needed to vent. Oh my gosh…I’m miserable…I want to runaway…

Top Twenty iTunes

[Heyy! I really want to get a music entry up but not entirely in the mood to actually type up anything. So I'm gonna give you my Top Twenty Most Played Songs on iTunes! Enjoy. Maybe you'll find some pretty amazing music that just rocks your socks. Note: I am ashamed of some of these songs -- guilty pleasures! I swear!]

A Whole New World — Aladdin
Ticks — Brad Paisley
Until the End — Breaking Benjamin
I Will Be Right Here Waiting For You — Bryan Adams
Here (In Your Arms) — Hellogoodbye

Heaven — Bryan Adams
Blow Me Away — Breaking Benjamin
Closer — Cauterize
Life is Beautiful — Nikki Sixx
Comatose — Skillet

Bittersweet — Fuel
Hey There Delilah — The Plain White T’s
Wake Up — Three Days Grace
I Caught Fire (In Your Eyes) — The Used
Fake It — Seether

Animal I Have Become — Three Days Grace
I Hate Everything About You — Three Days Grace
Girlfriend — Avril Lavigne
When You’re Gone — Avril Lavigne

 [Why, yes. Most definitely ashamed of a few of these. Haha!]

The Exploding Flower

 [Hey I made these two pictures via Photoshop! Enjoy!]

Techniques of Parenting

Last weekend my 14 year old brother decided to first ruin my movie night with a new friend. Julian, he’s a nice guy, just a friend. We were simply watching movies, hanging, you know…being friends. Of course not, my brother comes in and ruins the evening with his stupidity. I did not realize at the time he had been drinking, but sure enough, he had been. At the age of 14. He went off to his friends, later at around 1:40 I wake up to hear my mom going on about how she is picking up my 14 year old brother from the police station for being out pass curfew and being twice over the limit.

I for one was extremely upset, I couldn’t even understand how someone could possibly…do such a thing at the age of 14. I’m 18 and I’ve never had the urge to go off and do something so stupid. I’ve drank, but the alcohol was given to my by my mother. I’m a good child, I do all my work, my school work, I oblige to the rules. My brother on the other hand, complete opposite, because he has A.D.D. he cannot help it. Yeah, right. He gets off with everything. The one time I did something wrong, was when I fell in love with a guy on the internet and called him when I was 16. It took me a long, long time to regain her trust, and the things I loved to do in life.

My brother gets every little thing taken away he loves. And two days later, he is already taken off the little punishments. He got his phone back (which he got when he was 14, I had to wait until I was 16 — true when I started to call the one guy, but still!). And then he got to hang out with the exact same friends who influenced him to turn out this way. And now he’s getting the computer rights back.

He merely gets yelled at for breaking the law, drinking twice over the limit at the age of 14, and all these other things. And yet I’m severely yelled at for having pop cans on my floor. Why is it so easy to bash, what I like to call, the golden child, yet so hard to recongize the faults of the bad seed.

Life — Back Alley Style

 I believe in love, in arguing, in jamming out by yourself in the car.
I believe in smiling till your cheeks hurt and laughing until you cry.
I believe in having someone tell you you’re beautiful, dancing in the rain, and miracles.
I believe in second chances, even if you’ve completely screwed up

I’m not miserable but I’m not happy.
I’m not strong but I’m not weak.
I’m not rude but I’m not polite.
I’m not popular but i don’t care.
I’m not sexy but I’m not horrid.
I’m not dumb but I’m no genius.
i am girly but I’m also tough.
I’m not you but I AM ME.
accept it

“It’s a terrible thing to be lonely.
Especially in the middle of a crowd. “
– Marilyn Monroe

An Outlawed Love Spell

[My top favorite quotes on reading and writing, they're truly amazing] 

“If one cannot enjoy reading a book over and over again, there is no use in reading it at all.”
-Oscar Wilde

“A home without books is a body without soul.”
-Marcus Tullius Cicero

“Reading is a discount ticket to everywhere.”
-Mary Schmich

                                                                                                                                                                                       

Reading is to the mind what exercise is to the body.”
-Joseph Addison

“A wonderful thing about a book, in contrast to a computer screen, is that you can take it to bed with you.”
-Daniel J. Boorstin

            

Lonely

I have one picture today, that pretty much sums up how I am feeling. I find it…almost not worth it sometimes. Just feels like one of those days…where…I don’t know. I shouldn’t mention anything.

Enjoy the picture. I like how its set up on the burnt notebook paper and the key to the locket necklace